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Monday, 23 January 2017

New Years Engagement

 You know those moments that you think would never happen to you, then when

you lest expect it something really big happens in a place that you know would be a

day that you would never forget. That's what happened to me on December 31st 2016.

For the longest time Hank and I had been hanging out a lot and on a regular basis

Hank would spend the night at my house, and I would do the same on weekends. I

never really thought of Hank and I as dating, but I guess one could say with all the

hanging out we had been doing and how often John and I where spending time with

each other it only made sense that people took us for boyfriends who where dating. I

had never given any thought to myself as being gay or anything like that, hell it wasn't

something I had remotely ever thought about come to think about it.

It only made sense one night when my mom came in to my room and sat down

on my bed beside my desk. She had this complex look on her face that she was

having trouble trying to ask me a question that deeply troubled her. In the back of my

mind I kind of knew what she was going to ask to me, but I didn't want to lead her on

to something that I knew I would never be able to back out of if the time came for me

to do that. Hell if I was going to get a leg up on what ever it was that my mom was

going to ask to me, then I had better ask her a question first that way I could break the

ice and maybe that way my mom would feel more comfortable.

“, Mom can I ask you something.”

“, sure you can Hank, my mom replied.”

“, what's troubling you, I asked.”

My mom just sat for second or two with out saying a word or taking a breath. I

knew this had to be something really bad, and she couldn't bare to even tell me about

it. I logged off of my Facebook and started shutting down my computer. That's when

my mom let out this really loud exhale.

“, Are you gay Hank, my mom asked.”

“, What the hell kind of a question is that, I replied.”

“, I'm just wandering, asked my mom.”

“, Why does that matter to you if I'm gay or not mom, I asked.”

“, It doesn't matter to me if your gay, I'm only asking because you and John have been

hanging out a lot that's all.”

I couldn't believe what I was hearing coming from my own mom. Questions

about my sexuality and to be honest it made really uncomfortable, with all these

question's. I mean I love my mom and everything this was something totally out of

right field that I was so not expecting her to ask me on New Years eve of all days. I

took a deep breath and ran my hand through my hair, as I looked out the window.

“, Okay mom, I'm only going to say this once and once only. I'm not ready to have this

kind of talk with you right now, I never want to here this question again from you or

dad, do I make myself clear, I said.”

“, loud and clear, I will never ask you again about your sexuality again.”

“, good, now if you will excuse me I have to get ready, John will be here soon.”

“, where are you boys heading tonight, mom asked.”

“, just over to Tony's dance club, I replied.”

“, oh nice.”

“, is that the gay bar on 93rd and queen, mom asked.”

“, For Christ sake's mom you just had to ask that, after I just told you how I felt about

you asking me those kinds of questions.”

“, Honey I was only asking if it was a gay bar, I wasn't applying anything with that

question.”

I got up and walked out of my bedroom and slammed the door behind me yelling

at the top of my lungs, FUCK, WHAT FUCKING DIFFERANCE DOES IT MAKE IF IT'S

A GAY BAR OR NOT!. That was a bad move on my part because my dad had just

happen to walk in the door from work and heard me yelling and swearing at the top of

my lungs. MY dad was a tough cookie and one thing he couldn't stand was swearing

of any kind. Specially when it's directed at my mom.

“, Who the hell do you think you are talking to your mom like that,my dad asked.”

“, Mom pissed me off with her stupid ass questions dad, I replied angrily.”

“, There are better ways of handling it, you could just asked her to stop asking you

those questions if they bother you that much.”

“, I did ask her to stop and then she kept asking further.”

Man John couldn't get here fast enough, I needed to get the hell out of this

house, because now the environment inside my house was toxic beyond all repair. I

could only hope that John was going to ask me to spend the night at his house so that

way I wouldn't have to see my mom for the rest of the night.

My phone went off while I was in the kitchen getting something to eat, while my

dad was talking to my mom. I reached in to my pocket to grab my cell phone, it was

John asking if I wanted to spend the night at his house after the party. Of course I said

yes with out giving it any thought.

“, Hey dad, I called out.”

“, yes Buddy?”

“, Can spend the night over at John's think it would be better for all of us, I said.”

“, if that's what you think is better, for you then I suggest you do it.”

Wow I was so not expecting that answer from my dad. I was more expecting him

to tell me that I was grounded and couldn't go out tonight with John. John had sent

me another text saying that he was going to be leaving with in the hour, which was

cool with me. That gave me some time to pack my bag and get what I needed to

spend the night. I went in to my top drawer and grab a condom and a package of lube

just in case something happened, although I wasn't planning on having anything

happen. I just wanted to make sure I had all my grounds covered.

“, What time is John coming to pick you up buddy, asked my dad.”

“, he will be here in a hour or so, John time, I said.”

“, lets head down stairs and have a father son talk. I think we need to have one.”

“, sure dad, let me finish packing and I'll be right down.”

I headed down to the kitchen where my dad was waiting for me. I wasn't sure

what this father\son talk was going to be about, but I had a pretty good guess that it

was going to have something to do with that god awful question that mom had asked

earlier tonight before dad got home. I must admit that I miss our little father and son

talk's because it gives a chance to ask question that I could never in a million years

ask mom about.

“, What's up dad, I asked.”

“, take a seat please Hank, there's a a couple of things I want ask you about.”

“, sure dad anything you want, just ask away.”

Right then I knew this was not going to be a good, my dad had the same look on

his face that my mom had on her face just before asking me if I has gay. Knowing my

dad he just come right out with it. Boy he didn't let me down.

“, are you John by any chance dating,my dad asked me.”

“, maybe why.”

“, according to your mother you and John have spent a lot of time together, as well as

going out with each other a lot in the past 5 months.”

“, so is that crime or something, because if it is then I'm sorry, I replied.”

You know that moment when you catch someone off guard by your answer,

when they were counting on you to give them a totally different answer then the one

you gave them. For the first time my dad was speechless he didn't know how to

respond to my answer to his question. Weather it was the fact that I was trying to hide

the fact that I was gay, and that John and I had been dating on and off for the past 5

months, I was just not ready to come out of the closet just yet.

“, Have you and John ever fooled around with one another, when your mom and I

haven't been home, my dad asked.”

“, come on dad what kind of question is that, if John and I had done it when you and

mom were out you would have seen the condom in my trash can on garbage day.”

“, Get out of here, have fun tonight with John, my dad said as he left the kitchen.”
I quickly grabbed my cell phone out of my pocket and texted John to hurry the

fuck up and get here as fast as he could, I wanted out of my parents house. I was

being hunted down for reasons that where beyond my control and I was ready to

break down. My parents had succeed in confusing me about weather I was gay or not

and there tough line of questioning was doing the the trick in ways the could be very

harmful.

*
John finally showed up at my front door and I could barely wait to get the fuck

out of there. I wasted little time and made a run for John's ford f-150 that his parents

had bought him for his 18th birthday. For the most part John handled all the roamers

that where going around at school, so that way I didn't have to deal with any of the

pressure that was being forced on to John and myself by members of the student

body. I was never good when I'm put on the spot. I tend to break down and crack

under pressure.

“, Whats the hurry Hank, asked John.”

“, just get me the fuck out of here, I'll explain in the car on the way to the bar, I said.”

“, Okay should I be worried about this or not, asked John.”

“, Trust me it's nothing for you to be worried about, I just need to bitch at you for 10

minutes of so.”

“, okay babe, is everything okay between you and your parents, John asked.”

“, Not exactly, just drive, I replied.”

once we were clear out of sight of my parents house, leaned in and gave John

one of the biggest kisses I had ever given anyone. Not that I had been with a lot guys.

“, what was that for.”

“, sorry I don't know what came over me, I said blushing.”

“, well don't stop, I liked what you where just doing, keep going, John said.”

“, Really.”

“, yes really now give me some sugar you hot hunk of a man you.”

That was the first time I had heard John call me a hunk of a man and to be

honest it made me feel really good about myself. We kissed for a bit longer and then

held each other tightly. I knew I had another question from John but with everything

that had just happened between us, I was left with some doubt about were John and I

stood as boyfriends. Either way I had ask my question because I wanted to know

where John stood and how he felt about everything that had been going on for the

past five months.
*
“, John I have a silly question to ask you, I said.”

“, okay what is your silly question ask away Hank.”

“, have we been dating over the past 5 months or is this something different, I asked.”

“, Hank dude you know damn straight that we have been dating for the past 5 months

everything we have been doing together is all part of being in a relationship. Why are

you asking me this.”

“, no reason, I was just wandering how you felt about everything that has gone in the

past five months.”

After our little make season in Johns truck we headed to Tonys bar and I forgot

that I wanted to bitch for about 10 minutes. John must have forgotten as well because

he never asked me what I wanted to bitch about. What did I really have to bitch after

kissing John for the past 10 minutes I had no reason to bitch about what happened at

my house earlier tonight.

*
John drove around the block for a good 5 minutes just trying to find a parking

spot. Everyone in the city must have known that John and I where coming out for New

Years eve and wanted join to us for the party. We could here the music blasting away

and people where having a gay old time, Tony's was the place to be on New years

eve, because you never know who you are going to run in to.

“, I'm going to let you out right here, I wanna check out that parking lot down the street,

John said.”

“, will do babe, did you want any food, I asked.”

“, I'm good right now thanks, just get me a drink.”

I went inside Tony's bar, and there must have been over 200 people. The line up

at the bar wasn't too bad. Alex was running his butt off behind the bar making drinks

as quickly as possible. I found a clear spot where I could lean on the bar, while Alex

was serving other customers.

“, Hank hows it hanging man, the usual drinks for you and John tonight, Alex asked.”

“, I'll have my normal rum and coke, and John wanted you to make him a tight screw, I

replied.”

“, one rum and coke and one hot tight screw coming right up, Alex said with a smile.”

“, Guess who, a voice said from behind me.”

“, Umm could this be Matt Damon by any chance, I replied.”

“, you only wish I was that sexy, replied John.”

While Alex was making our drinks, John went to the DJ booth to ask him about

something. John was acting vary strangely tonight like he was hiding something from

me. Oddly enough I had a gut feeling that John was up to something, I just couldn't

figure out what he was up to.

“, hey, did you ask the DJ, I asked.”

“, just asked him to play a song I like, is that okay, John replied.”

“, Hey John, where have you been all night long, asked Alex.”

“, trying to find a damn parking spot, and this is why I never go out on New years.”

“, That will be $ 7.50 please Hank, Alex asked.”

“, here's 10 bucks keep the change Alex, I replied.”

I walked to an empty table that was in the far corner of the bar and just off the

right side of the stage. The DJ that was on tonight knew what this packed house

wanted to listen to and he kept the hits coming all night long. I took a couple sips of

my drink and I was already feeling a buzz coming on. I had very little to eat over the

course of day but I did have a pretty big dinner just before John came to pick me up

from the personal hell I was going through with my parents.

What happened next caught me completely off guard. The DJ stooped playing

the music despite the crowds disappointment and asked John to join him on stage. It

was then I started getting butterfly's in my stomach. In my head I thought oh dear god

John is going to ask me to marry him in front of this packed bar. Before I could take

another sip of my drink, the DJ asked me to join them on stage.

The DJ started explaining to everyone how close John and I were. After he was

through explaining that to everyone, he then handed the microphone over to John to

say a couple words.

“, Hank we have known each other for nearly 5 years now. You hold a vary special

spot in my heart and ever since we started dating and going out my feeling's for you

have grown leaps and bounds. Hank you are the most amazing guy I have ever known

and to be able to call you my friend and my boyfriend there is just one question I would

like to ask you in front of this packed bar, John said.”

“, go ahead ask me anything you want, I replied.”

“, Hank Thomas would you marry me, John asked on one knee.”

Holly shit I couldn't believe my eyes, there in front of me was that same 14kg

ring with the blue s afire diamond in the middle staring at me. I nodded my head yes

several times before the DJ told the entire bar that I had just said yes. This was a night

either of us were soon going to forget.

“, Ladies and Gentlemen we have come to that time so everyone join me and our

newly engage couple as we count down to 2017, said the DJ.”

We counted down from 30 and then before I knew it John and I where in a tight

lip lock right at the stroke of midnight.

“, Happy new year honey.”

“, Happy new year to you to babe, John replied.”

We locked lips one more time to the cheers of the crowd that had gathered at

Tony's bar that night. And let me tell you what a night it was for all who attended


Tony's gay bash new years party.